On Friday, we have the BIG Appointment, probably the only one my husband will be at this time around....the 20 week Ultrasound. The big day. Blue or Pink, Boy or Girl.
Do I want a healthy baby above anything else....YES.
Do I know no matter what they tell me I will
Do I know I will love my baby no matter the result.....YES.
I REALLY want a boy.
With our first born, we really didn't have a preference. I guess if I had to chose I would have said boy, which is what we got, but either way I didn't care.
With #2 We thought a girl would be nice, but also thought that if we had a boy, that would be great too.
Now we have one of each, this is our tiebreaker baby....and I really want a boy.
Here is some of why I think I am feeling this way.....
-My son is at SUCH a wonderful age. He listens, he is starting sports, he eats what he is told to eat, he hasn't thrown a fit in forever. It is just really great. My Lilly on the other hand is the exact opposite. She just turned 3. She is a know it all, must do everything on her own (even when she can't) throws food she doesn't want at meals, and whines constantly. I realize this is just a phase.
-I had a girl last. I really want to go through the experience of a boy again.
-I feel like more of a boys mom than a girls. I can't imagine the teenage years with the way my 3 year old and I bicker at each other now.
-My son's room is bigger. This one may sound crazy, but if we have a boy the room situation stays the same. The boys get the bigger room, and Lilly has the room she is in now. If it is a girl, we have to undecorate, repaint and switch their rooms. That is A LOT of work.
-In my heart I just have always felt boy.
I will say though that we have names picked either way, and I do really like the girl name, so that is good.
Whatever happens I know I will be happy, and one more milestone closer to meeting my baby.
**This post makes my 3 year old sound like a nightmare, and while some days she is, Lilly is also a sweet cuddly girl, which I love so much!