Do you ever overextend yourself and then just break down because there is just too much going on at one time. Yea, that is me right about now. It isn't even anything extra, it is just my attempt at trying to do it all (the normal housewife stuff) perfectly.
My name is Samantha, and I am a perfectionist.
I hate how if I am excelling at one area something else slips away. Lately I have done a really good job of really sitting and playing "with" my kids, starting to teach my son how to read, and not saying not now when Lilly wants me to read 800 books a day. With that comes dirty floors, and laundry that needs attention it is not getting.
Finding balance is so difficult.
Blogging is also something that I am trying to be perfect at, when there really is no such thing as the perfect blog. I came into this new blog wanted to keep it fun, not worrying about followers and comments and pageviews. But I find myself making this more stressful than it should be. I am beating myself up over the fact that my blog isn't really focused on something in particular.
I am sitting here thinking about the fact that my fridge needs cleaned, laundry needs done, my floors haven't been mopping in longer than I'd like to admit.....but me, I am off to the bookstore (something Matthew asked to do weeks ago, and we haven't done yet) to read, play trains, and do storytime, because I am so stressed I wouldn't know where to start.
But honestly my floors REALLY need some attention as well.
As for the blog.... I am so overwhelmed I don't know what to do. I am so inspired (lately by amazing local bloggers) but am not sure where my blog fits. There are so many things I love to do, that I wouldn' t know what to focus on even if I wanted to.
Perfect isn't possible, and it wouldn't be that fun anyway, right!